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Posted by birdland - Jan 1, 2007 - 10:18am
Jan 1 2007.

Seven years ago in a hotel in Portugal I decided to sober up.

Correction. I had decided sometime before that, but for some reason this one stuck.

Seven years.

I have a soulmate wife, 2 beautiful kids who've never seen me drink/drug.

The picture some may have is that of a messy, unclean, ugly mess. I was not that. I drank the finest wine, wore fine clothes, travelled and was able to hold myself up in any polite situation. I made lots of cash. I was completely comfortable.

I drank alone most often.

I am sober because of a higher power. I am sober because of a group of people (AA), and I am sober out of the strengh of my family.

If anyone reads this who is struggling with any life problem, I ask only one thing of you - somehow find the courage to share it.

Onward...

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Posted: Jan 2, 2007 - 10:42am

I lift my cranberry juice to you sir

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Posted: Jan 2, 2007 - 8:16am

So many here have beat addictions and so many others want to. We need to hear from every success story. And we need to support each other through short-term stumbles.

Our need to break out of negative cycles extends to more than just chemicals. Your advice, and many of the same internal processes, extend to negative thinking, emotional dependencies, addictions to failure, to unhealthy food, to lack of exercise. Your words ring true for each of these "addictions".

Thanks for posting this.

And congratulations


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Posted: Jan 1, 2007 - 5:59pm

Keep Coming Back!


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Posted: Jan 1, 2007 - 3:35pm

I thought about sobering up on Y2Kday - I was actually sober that day - didn't even wish for a percocet - but it was another year and a half before I realized that I was dead if I didn't stop - AA, what a resource! When I sobered up I lost my wife (and for awhile, my kids) - best thing that ever happened to me.

I drink occasionally, never had an overindulgence problem with alcohol - and some would say that I go for the marijuana maintenance program - (not in front of my kids) - but, truth is, I respect and find true life benefit in the little ganja I put through my brain - so be it.

I am still a cigarette slut; Now, More, Again! Just cuz I beat the Rx junkie monkey doesn't mean I'm done changing - lots of that past, now, and future, but I feel sober, even when I kick back with my acoustic and smoke a bowl; because I know I can choose, and have evidence that it's the choosing of my actions, and what I allow into my body, without attached 'necessity' strings, that makes a beer now & then even I can walk away from an addiction and be happier for who I am.

And, no fear, I'm still half-crazy, half-stupid, though am I seldom half-witted - the worst day sober and lost in reality is still way better than a head full of dilaudid and a pocket full for backup.

Happy Birthday.

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Posted: Jan 1, 2007 - 3:35pm

I thought about sobering up on Y2Kday - I was actually sober that day - didn't even wish for a percocet - but it was another year and a half before I realized that I was dead if I didn't stop - AA, what a resource! When I sobered up I lost my wife (and for awhile, my kids) - best thing that ever happened to me.

I drink occasionally, never had an overindulgence problem with alcohol - and some would say that I go for the marijuana maintenance program - (not in front of my kids) - but, truth is, I respect and find true life benefit in the little ganja I put through my brain - so be it.

I am still a cigarette slut; Now, More, Again! Just cuz I beat the Rx junkie monkey doesn't mean I'm done changing - lots of that past, now, and future, but I feel sober, even when I kick back with my acoustic and smoke a bowl; because I know I can choose, and have evidence that it's the choosing of my actions, and what I allow into my body, without attached 'necessity' strings, that makes a beer now & then even I can walk away from an addiction and be happier for who I am.

And, no fear, I'm still half-crazy, half-stupid, though am I seldom half-witted - the worst day sober and lost in reality is still way better than a head full of dilaudid and a pocket full for backup.

Happy Birthday.

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Posted: Jan 1, 2007 - 3:35pm

I thought about sobering up on Y2Kday - I was actually sober that day - didn't even wish for a percocet - but it was another year and a half before I realized that I was dead if I didn't stop - AA, what a resource! When I sobered up I lost my wife (and for awhile, my kids) - best thing that ever happened to me.

I drink occasionally, never had an overindulgence problem with alcohol - and some would say that I go for the marijuana maintenance program - (not in front of my kids) - but, truth is, I respect and find true life benefit in the little ganja I put through my brain - so be it.

I am still a cigarette slut; Now, More, Again! Just cuz I beat the Rx junkie monkey doesn't mean I'm done changing - lots of that past, now, and future, but I feel sober, even when I kick back with my acoustic and smoke a bowl; because I know I can choose, and have evidence that it's the choosing of my actions, and what I allow into my body, without attached 'necessity' strings, that makes a beer now & then even I can walk away from an addiction and be happier for who I am.

And, no fear, I'm still half-crazy, half-stupid, though am I seldom half-witted - the worst day sober and lost in reality is still way better than a head full of dilaudid and a pocket full for backup.

Happy Birthday.

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Posted: Jan 1, 2007 - 3:35pm

I thought about sobering up on Y2Kday - I was actually sober that day - didn't even wish for a percocet - but it was another year and a half before I realized that I was dead if I didn't stop - AA, what a resource! When I sobered up I lost my wife (and for awhile, my kids) - best thing that ever happened to me.

I drink occasionally, never had an overindulgence problem with alcohol - and some would say that I go for the marijuana maintenance program - (not in front of my kids) - but, truth is, I respect and find true life benefit in the little ganja I put through my brain - so be it.

I am still a cigarette slut; Now, More, Again! Just cuz I beat the Rx junkie monkey doesn't mean I'm done changing - lots of that past, now, and future, but I feel sober, even when I kick back with my acoustic and smoke a bowl; because I know I can choose, and have evidence that it's the choosing of my actions, and what I allow into my body, without attached 'necessity' strings, that makes a beer now & then even I can walk away from an addiction and be happier for who I am.

And, no fear, I'm still half-crazy, half-stupid, though am I seldom half-witted - the worst day sober and lost in reality is still way better than a head full of dilaudid and a pocket full for backup.

Happy Birthday.

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Posted: Jan 1, 2007 - 3:35pm

I thought about sobering up on Y2Kday - I was actually sober that day - didn't even wish for a percocet - but it was another year and a half before I realized that I was dead if I didn't stop - AA, what a resource! When I sobered up I lost my wife (and for awhile, my kids) - best thing that ever happened to me.

I drink occasionally, never had an overindulgence problem with alcohol - and some would say that I go for the marijuana maintenance program - (not in front of my kids) - but, truth is, I respect and find true life benefit in the little ganja I put through my brain - so be it.

I am still a cigarette slut; Now, More, Again! Just cuz I beat the Rx junkie monkey doesn't mean I'm done changing - lots of that past, now, and future, but I feel sober, even when I kick back with my acoustic and smoke a bowl; because I know I can choose, and have evidence that it's the choosing of my actions, and what I allow into my body, without attached 'necessity' strings, that makes a beer now & then even I can walk away from an addiction and be happier for who I am.

And, no fear, I'm still half-crazy, half-stupid, though am I seldom half-witted - the worst day sober and lost in reality is still way better than a head full of dilaudid and a pocket full for backup.

Happy Birthday.

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Posted: Jan 1, 2007 - 3:35pm

I thought about sobering up on Y2Kday - I was actually sober that day - didn't even wish for a percocet - but it was another year and a half before I realized that I was dead if I didn't stop - AA, what a resource! When I sobered up I lost my wife (and for awhile, my kids) - best thing that ever happened to me.

I drink occasionally, never had an overindulgence problem with alcohol - and some would say that I go for the marijuana maintenance program - (not in front of my kids) - but, truth is, I respect and find true life benefit in the little ganja I put through my brain - so be it.

I am still a cigarette slut; Now, More, Again! Just cuz I beat the Rx junkie monkey doesn't mean I'm done changing - lots of that past, now, and future, but I feel sober, even when I kick back with my acoustic and smoke a bowl; because I know I can choose, and have evidence that it's the choosing of my actions, and what I allow into my body, without attached 'necessity' strings, that makes a beer now & then even I can walk away from an addiction and be happier for who I am.

And, no fear, I'm still half-crazy, half-stupid, though am I seldom half-witted - the worst day sober and lost in reality is still way better than a head full of dilaudid and a pocket full for backup.

Happy Birthday.

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Posted: Jan 1, 2007 - 3:35pm

I thought about sobering up on Y2Kday - I was actually sober that day - didn't even wish for a percocet - but it was another year and a half before I realized that I was dead if I didn't stop - AA, what a resource! When I sobered up I lost my wife (and for awhile, my kids) - best thing that ever happened to me.

I drink occasionally, never had an overindulgence problem with alcohol - and some would say that I go for the marijuana maintenance program - (not in front of my kids) - but, truth is, I respect and find true life benefit in the little ganja I put through my brain - so be it.

I am still a cigarette slut; Now, More, Again! Just cuz I beat the Rx junkie monkey doesn't mean I'm done changing - lots of that past, now, and future, but I feel sober, even when I kick back with my acoustic and smoke a bowl; because I know I can choose, and have evidence that it's the choosing of my actions, and what I allow into my body, without attached 'necessity' strings, that makes a beer now & then even I can walk away from an addiction and be happier for who I am.

And, no fear, I'm still half-crazy, half-stupid, though am I seldom half-witted - the worst day sober and lost in reality is still way better than a head full of dilaudid and a pocket full for backup.

Happy Birthday.

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Posted: Jan 1, 2007 - 3:35pm

I thought about sobering up on Y2Kday - I was actually sober that day - didn't even wish for a percocet - but it was another year and a half before I realized that I was dead if I didn't stop - AA, what a resource! When I sobered up I lost my wife (and for awhile, my kids) - best thing that ever happened to me.

I drink occasionally, never had an overindulgence problem with alcohol - and some would say that I go for the marijuana maintenance program - (not in front of my kids) - but, truth is, I respect and find true life benefit in the little ganja I put through my brain - so be it.

I am still a cigarette slut; Now, More, Again! Just cuz I beat the Rx junkie monkey doesn't mean I'm done changing - lots of that past, now, and future, but I feel sober, even when I kick back with my acoustic and smoke a bowl; because I know I can choose, and have evidence that it's the choosing of my actions, and what I allow into my body, without attached 'necessity' strings, that makes a beer now & then even I can walk away from an addiction and be happier for who I am.

And, no fear, I'm still half-crazy, half-stupid, though am I seldom half-witted - the worst day sober and lost in reality is still way better than a head full of dilaudid and a pocket full for backup.

Happy Birthday.

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Posted: Jan 1, 2007 - 3:35pm

I thought about sobering up on Y2Kday - I was actually sober that day - didn't even wish for a percocet - but it was another year and a half before I realized that I was dead if I didn't stop - AA, what a resource! When I sobered up I lost my wife (and for awhile, my kids) - best thing that ever happened to me.

I drink occasionally, never had an overindulgence problem with alcohol - and some would say that I go for the marijuana maintenance program - (not in front of my kids) - but, truth is, I respect and find true life benefit in the little ganja I put through my brain - so be it.

I am still a cigarette slut; Now, More, Again! Just cuz I beat the Rx junkie monkey doesn't mean I'm done changing - lots of that past, now, and future, but I feel sober, even when I kick back with my acoustic and smoke a bowl; because I know I can choose, and have evidence that it's the choosing of my actions, and what I allow into my body, without attached 'necessity' strings, that makes a beer now & then even I can walk away from an addiction and be happier for who I am.

And, no fear, I'm still half-crazy, half-stupid, though am I seldom half-witted - the worst day sober and lost in reality is still way better than a head full of dilaudid and a pocket full for backup.

Happy Birthday.

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Posted: Jan 1, 2007 - 3:35pm

I thought about sobering up on Y2Kday - I was actually sober that day - didn't even wish for a percocet - but it was another year and a half before I realized that I was dead if I didn't stop - AA, what a resource! When I sobered up I lost my wife (and for awhile, my kids) - best thing that ever happened to me.

I drink occasionally, never had an overindulgence problem with alcohol - and some would say that I go for the marijuana maintenance program - (not in front of my kids) - but, truth is, I respect and find true life benefit in the little ganja I put through my brain - so be it.

I am still a cigarette slut; Now, More, Again! Just cuz I beat the Rx junkie monkey doesn't mean I'm done changing - lots of that past, now, and future, but I feel sober, even when I kick back with my acoustic and smoke a bowl; because I know I can choose, and have evidence that it's the choosing of my actions, and what I allow into my body, without attached 'necessity' strings, that makes a beer now & then even I can walk away from an addiction and be happier for who I am.

And, no fear, I'm still half-crazy, half-stupid, though am I seldom half-witted - the worst day sober and lost in reality is still way better than a head full of dilaudid and a pocket full for backup.

Happy Birthday.

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Posted: Jan 1, 2007 - 3:35pm

I thought about sobering up on Y2Kday - I was actually sober that day - didn't even wish for a percocet - but it was another year and a half before I realized that I was dead if I didn't stop - AA, what a resource! When I sobered up I lost my wife (and for awhile, my kids) - best thing that ever happened to me.

I drink occasionally, never had an overindulgence problem with alcohol - and some would say that I go for the marijuana maintenance program - (not in front of my kids) - but, truth is, I respect and find true life benefit in the little ganja I put through my brain - so be it.

I am still a cigarette slut; Now, More, Again! Just cuz I beat the Rx junkie monkey doesn't mean I'm done changing - lots of that past, now, and future, but I feel sober, even when I kick back with my acoustic and smoke a bowl; because I know I can choose, and have evidence that it's the choosing of my actions, and what I allow into my body, without attached 'necessity' strings, that makes a beer now & then even I can walk away from an addiction and be happier for who I am.

And, no fear, I'm still half-crazy, half-stupid, though am I seldom half-witted - the worst day sober and lost in reality is still way better than a head full of dilaudid and a pocket full for backup.

Happy Birthday.

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Posted: Jan 1, 2007 - 3:35pm

I thought about sobering up on Y2Kday - I was actually sober that day - didn't even wish for a percocet - but it was another year and a half before I realized that I was dead if I didn't stop - AA, what a resource! When I sobered up I lost my wife (and for awhile, my kids) - best thing that ever happened to me.

I drink occasionally, never had an overindulgence problem with alcohol - and some would say that I go for the marijuana maintenance program - (not in front of my kids) - but, truth is, I respect and find true life benefit in the little ganja I put through my brain - so be it.

I am still a cigarette slut; Now, More, Again! Just cuz I beat the Rx junkie monkey doesn't mean I'm done changing - lots of that past, now, and future, but I feel sober, even when I kick back with my acoustic and smoke a bowl; because I know I can choose, and have evidence that it's the choosing of my actions, and what I allow into my body, without attached 'necessity' strings, that makes a beer now & then even I can walk away from an addiction and be happier for who I am.

And, no fear, I'm still half-crazy, half-stupid, though am I seldom half-witted - the worst day sober and lost in reality is still way better than a head full of dilaudid and a pocket full for backup.

Happy Birthday.

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Posted: Jan 1, 2007 - 3:35pm

I thought about sobering up on Y2Kday - I was actually sober that day - didn't even wish for a percocet - but it was another year and a half before I realized that I was dead if I didn't stop - AA, what a resource! When I sobered up I lost my wife (and for awhile, my kids) - best thing that ever happened to me.

I drink occasionally, never had an overindulgence problem with alcohol - and some would say that I go for the marijuana maintenance program - (not in front of my kids) - but, truth is, I respect and find true life benefit in the little ganja I put through my brain - so be it.

I am still a cigarette slut; Now, More, Again! Just cuz I beat the Rx junkie monkey doesn't mean I'm done changing - lots of that past, now, and future, but I feel sober, even when I kick back with my acoustic and smoke a bowl; because I know I can choose, and have evidence that it's the choosing of my actions, and what I allow into my body, without attached 'necessity' strings, that makes a beer now & then even I can walk away from an addiction and be happier for who I am.

And, no fear, I'm still half-crazy, half-stupid, though am I seldom half-witted - the worst day sober and lost in reality is still way better than a head full of dilaudid and a pocket full for backup.

Happy Birthday.

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Posted: Jan 1, 2007 - 3:35pm

I thought about sobering up on Y2Kday - I was actually sober that day - didn't even wish for a percocet - but it was another year and a half before I realized that I was dead if I didn't stop - AA, what a resource! When I sobered up I lost my wife (and for awhile, my kids) - best thing that ever happened to me.

I drink occasionally, never had an overindulgence problem with alcohol - and some would say that I go for the marijuana maintenance program - (not in front of my kids) - but, truth is, I respect and find true life benefit in the little ganja I put through my brain - so be it.

I am still a cigarette slut; Now, More, Again! Just cuz I beat the Rx junkie monkey doesn't mean I'm done changing - lots of that past, now, and future, but I feel sober, even when I kick back with my acoustic and smoke a bowl; because I know I can choose, and have evidence that it's the choosing of my actions, and what I allow into my body, without attached 'necessity' strings, that makes a beer now & then even I can walk away from an addiction and be happier for who I am.

And, no fear, I'm still half-crazy, half-stupid, though am I seldom half-witted - the worst day sober and lost in reality is still way better than a head full of dilaudid and a pocket full for backup.

Happy Birthday.

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Posted: Jan 1, 2007 - 3:35pm

I thought about sobering up on Y2Kday - I was actually sober that day - didn't even wish for a percocet - but it was another year and a half before I realized that I was dead if I didn't stop - AA, what a resource! When I sobered up I lost my wife (and for awhile, my kids) - best thing that ever happened to me.

I drink occasionally, never had an overindulgence problem with alcohol - and some would say that I go for the marijuana maintenance program - (not in front of my kids) - but, truth is, I respect and find true life benefit in the little ganja I put through my brain - so be it.

I am still a cigarette slut; Now, More, Again! Just cuz I beat the Rx junkie monkey doesn't mean I'm done changing - lots of that past, now, and future, but I feel sober, even when I kick back with my acoustic and smoke a bowl; because I know I can choose, and have evidence that it's the choosing of my actions, and what I allow into my body, without attached 'necessity' strings, that makes a beer now & then even I can walk away from an addiction and be happier for who I am.

And, no fear, I'm still half-crazy, half-stupid, though am I seldom half-witted - the worst day sober and lost in reality is still way better than a head full of dilaudid and a pocket full for backup.

Happy Birthday.

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Posted: Jan 1, 2007 - 3:35pm

I thought about sobering up on Y2Kday - I was actually sober that day - didn't even wish for a percocet - but it was another year and a half before I realized that I was dead if I didn't stop - AA, what a resource! When I sobered up I lost my wife (and for awhile, my kids) - best thing that ever happened to me.

I drink occasionally, never had an overindulgence problem with alcohol - and some would say that I go for the marijuana maintenance program - (not in front of my kids) - but, truth is, I respect and find true life benefit in the little ganja I put through my brain - so be it.

I am still a cigarette slut; Now, More, Again! Just cuz I beat the Rx junkie monkey doesn't mean I'm done changing - lots of that past, now, and future, but I feel sober, even when I kick back with my acoustic and smoke a bowl; because I know I can choose, and have evidence that it's the choosing of my actions, and what I allow into my body, without attached 'necessity' strings, that makes a beer now & then even I can walk away from an addiction and be happier for who I am.

And, no fear, I'm still half-crazy, half-stupid, though am I seldom half-witted - the worst day sober and lost in reality is still way better than a head full of dilaudid and a pocket full for backup.

Happy Birthday.

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Posted: Jan 1, 2007 - 3:35pm

I thought about sobering up on Y2Kday - I was actually sober that day - didn't even wish for a percocet - but it was another year and a half before I realized that I was dead if I didn't stop - AA, what a resource! When I sobered up I lost my wife (and for awhile, my kids) - best thing that ever happened to me.

I drink occasionally, never had an overindulgence problem with alcohol - and some would say that I go for the marijuana maintenance program - (not in front of my kids) - but, truth is, I respect and find true life benefit in the little ganja I put through my brain - so be it.

I am still a cigarette slut; Now, More, Again! Just cuz I beat the Rx junkie monkey doesn't mean I'm done changing - lots of that past, now, and future, but I feel sober, even when I kick back with my acoustic and smoke a bowl; because I know I can choose, and have evidence that it's the choosing of my actions, and what I allow into my body, without attached 'necessity' strings, that makes a beer now & then even I can walk away from an addiction and be happier for who I am.

And, no fear, I'm still half-crazy, half-stupid, though am I seldom half-witted - the worst day sober and lost in reality is still way better than a head full of dilaudid and a pocket full for backup.

Happy Birthday.