RP Listener Forum - Radio Paradise

Posted: Jun 9, 2013 - 6:30am

fuzzy wrote:

Using a dead person to prop yourself up. Fuck you Tuma.

Still. The same spammed 'miss you/love this song'. Cynaera really does deserve better respect here than to be spammed daily by an idiot. But I must say I do get a fun little bit of schadenfreude seeing an idiot respond to his former identity here and knowing that because he is an idiot he has been relegated to one part of the website. At this point he is really only trolling himself.

Posted: Mar 31, 2013 - 1:01pm

I'm so sorry. I did not know her well, but remember her presence was always positive influence, and her posts often brought a smile to my face. RIP, Cynaera. Condolences to your family and other loved ones.

Posted: Mar 31, 2013 - 11:32am

I don't think my earlier time with RP coincided with the time of this lady, I don't remember her at all - but I truly wish it had coincided.
Sounds as if she was/is a particularly spectacular someone who mattered to many, and that is something that can go on and on for many, many lifetimes.

S'funny how you can really know magic but a few times in your life.

Posted: Mar 30, 2013 - 11:43pm

Hi James,

Thank you so much for taking the time to share your thoughts and feelings regarding your sister. I barely knew her, but knew her quite well in the forum. I believe we exchanged a few comments between us. She was always very thought provoking and deep with her comments. I liked that she was what she was and nothing more or less. We had similar tastes in music. She will always be missed here and hopefully you can manage to listen to RP once in a while and reconnect with Ann.

How's the Harley?

Rob

(ziakut)

Posted: Feb 13, 2013 - 11:25am

Speed wrote:

Hi all;
   I'm Cynaera's brother James. I just wanted to tell all of you how much I appreciate all your comments on Cynaera. I went through and read all 9 pages,smiling through the tears. Naturally,I miss her terribly still,but it makes the pain much easier to bear to know I'm not hurting alone. I've been so blown away as I learn how many lives she was a part of,and I wish you all could have met her face to face. To be honest,I often didn't have such glowing remarks to give about her,as she could be-challenging to live with at times. But,no matter what,she was always exactly herself,take it or leave it. Giving was so ingrained in her nature,she just didn't feel right unless she could help somebody. A short story about her character.
   In 1998 I had sold my beloved 1980 Harley while living in Reno,to finance a move to Boise Idaho for a job,with the plan of buying another one once I was getting regular paychecks. Things didn't go as well as I'd expected them to,so I didn't get another bike,and a lot happened in the following years. I moved back home to Elko,Nevada in 2000. In 2008 I was in the Hospital,trying to get over pneumonia.and my Doctor was strongly urging me to do some home improvements (smoke damage from both parents' 40 years of heavy cigarette smoking-painting,hardwood floors,etc.)to make the house safe to live in with my breathing issues. Ann and I decided I should re-finance the house to cover some remodeling. Ann suggested,then insisted that I take enough to buy myself another Harley. She said,"James,every time a Harley goes by the house I see you die a little inside. You should get another Harley-you've paid your dues-now do something for YOU for a change,dammit." (clenched fists,stomps her foot,grins and blushes) It figures,that she'd see something in me that even I didn't spot. Ann would do just about anything for others,but would flat reject offers of assistance for herself. She was TOO stubborn,many times.
   Anyway,the reason I'm writing is to let you know how touched I am with your kind words and your appreciation of her contributions. She considered you good people her online family,a hard title to earn. I'd often hear her laughing or talking back to the computer while she wrote something on the forum or commented on a song or read a comment someone had written. You had as huge an impact on her as she did on you. Thank you for taking care of her while she was in your midst. She truly was in good company there,as I believe she is now.
   James
   sk8080hd@yahoo.com

James/Speed~
Thank you. Cynaera's presence here was one of the things that kept me coming back when the as-to-be-expected ruckus and rants got to be overwhelming in the RP forums. She touched my life with her personal communications via PMs, where she both confided and consoled. Your sharing of that most precious of intimacies – the remembrances of a loved one gone from this world – indicates that the kind and considerate nature for which we knew your sister most certainly is a family trait.

Posted: Feb 13, 2013 - 8:59am

Speed wrote:

Hi all;
I'm Cynaera's brother James. I just wanted to tell all of you how much I appreciate all your comments on Cynaera. I went through and read all 9 pages,smiling through the tears. Naturally,I mi....

Thanks. She was/IS ! part of the Radio Paradise DNA. She is missed.

Posted: Feb 12, 2013 - 12:57am

kysmet wrote:

Also, does anyone know what her username means? Been wondering that for a long time.

She worked with plants, right? I always figured it was a variant spelling of cynara.

Thanks, Speed!

Posted: Feb 11, 2013 - 8:55pm

Speed wrote:

Hi all;
I'm Cynaera's brother James. I just wanted to tell all of you how much I appreciate all your comments on Cynaera. I went through and read all 9 pages,smiling through the tears. Naturally,I miss her terribly still,but it makes the pain much easier to bear to know I'm not hurting alone. I've been so blown away as I learn how many lives she was a part of,and I wish you all could have met her face to face. To be honest,I often didn't have such glowing remarks to give about her,as she could be -challenging to live with at times. But,no matter what,she was always exactly herself,take it or leave it. Giving was so ingrained in her nature,she just didn't feel right unless she could help somebody . A short story about her character.
In 1998 I had sold my beloved 1980 Harley while living in Reno,to finance a move to Boise Idaho for a job,with the plan of buying another one once I was getting regular paychecks. Things didn't go as well as I'd expected them to,so I didn't get another bike,and a lot happened in the following years. I moved back home to Elko,Nevada in 2000. In 2008 I was in the Hospital,trying to get over pneumonia.and my Doctor was strongly urging me to do some home improvements (smoke damage from both parents' 40 years of heavy cigarette smoking-painting,hardwood floors,etc.)to make the house safe to live in with my breathing issues. Ann and I decided I should re-finance the house to cover some remodeling. Ann suggested,then insisted that I take enough to buy myself another Harley. She said,"James,every time a Harley goes by the house I see you die a little inside. You should get another Harley-you've paid your dues-now do something for YOU for a change,dammit." (clenched fists,stomps her foot,grins and blushes) It figures,that she'd see something in me that even I didn't spot. Ann would do just about anything for others,but would flat reject offers of assistance for herself. She was TOO stubborn,many times.
Anyway,the reason I'm writing is to let you know how touched I am with your kind words and your appreciation of her contributions. She considered you good people her online family,a hard title to earn. I'd often hear her laughing or talking back to the computer while she wrote something on the forum or commented on a song or read a comment someone had written. You had as huge an impact on her as she did on you. Thank you for taking care of her while she was in your midst. She truly was in good company there,as I believe she is now.
James
sk8080hd@yahoo.com

Hi James, welcome to the family. Thanks so much for posting this... I can 't tell you how much it will mean to so many of us here. All the best wishes and hopes for you and yours.

Posted: Feb 11, 2013 - 8:26pm

Thank you, James.

Posted: Feb 11, 2013 - 6:00am

hey, james. thanks for that. we're all so happy you can see what she was to a lot of us, here. and thanks for sharing her with us.

Posted: Feb 11, 2013 - 5:46am

Speed wrote:

Hi all;
   I'm Cynaera's brother James. I just wanted to tell all of you how much I appreciate all your comments on Cynaera. I went through and read all 9 pages,smiling through the tears. Naturally,I miss her terribly still,but it makes the pain much easier to bear to know I'm not hurting alone. I've been so blown away as I learn how many lives she was a part of,and I wish you all could have met her face to face. To be honest,I often didn't have such glowing remarks to give about her,as she could be-challenging to live with at times. But,no matter what,she was always exactly herself,take it or leave it. Giving was so ingrained in her nature,she just didn't feel right unless she could help somebody. A short story about her character.
   In 1998 I had sold my beloved 1980 Harley while living in Reno,to finance a move to Boise Idaho for a job,with the plan of buying another one once I was getting regular paychecks. Things didn't go as well as I'd expected them to,so I didn't get another bike,and a lot happened in the following years. I moved back home to Elko,Nevada in 2000. In 2008 I was in the Hospital,trying to get over pneumonia.and my Doctor was strongly urging me to do some home improvements (smoke damage from both parents' 40 years of heavy cigarette smoking-painting,hardwood floors,etc.)to make the house safe to live in with my breathing issues. Ann and I decided I should re-finance the house to cover some remodeling. Ann suggested,then insisted that I take enough to buy myself another Harley. She said,"James,every time a Harley goes by the house I see you die a little inside. You should get another Harley-you've paid your dues-now do something for YOU for a change,dammit." (clenched fists,stomps her foot,grins and blushes) It figures,that she'd see something in me that even I didn't spot. Ann would do just about anything for others,but would flat reject offers of assistance for herself. She was TOO stubborn,many times.
   Anyway,the reason I'm writing is to let you know how touched I am with your kind words and your appreciation of her contributions. She considered you good people her online family,a hard title to earn. I'd often hear her laughing or talking back to the computer while she wrote something on the forum or commented on a song or read a comment someone had written. You had as huge an impact on her as she did on you. Thank you for taking care of her while she was in your midst. She truly was in good company there,as I believe she is now.
   James
   sk8080hd@yahoo.com

Thanks so much for sharing with us. She was truly a special person. I hope that you feel the love.

Posted: Feb 11, 2013 - 5:10am

Speed wrote:

Hi all;
   I'm Cynaera's brother James. I just wanted to tell all of you how much I appreciate all your comments on Cynaera. I went through and read all 9 pages,smiling through the tears. Naturally,I miss her terribly still,but it makes the pain much easier to bear to know I'm not hurting alone. I've been so blown away as I learn how many lives she was a part of,and I wish you all could have met her face to face. To be honest,I often didn't have such glowing remarks to give about her,as she could be-challenging to live with at times. But,no matter what,she was always exactly herself,take it or leave it. Giving was so ingrained in her nature,she just didn't feel right unless she could help somebody. A short story about her character.
   In 1998 I had sold my beloved 1980 Harley while living in Reno,to finance a move to Boise Idaho for a job,with the plan of buying another one once I was getting regular paychecks. Things didn't go as well as I'd expected them to,so I didn't get another bike,and a lot happened in the following years. I moved back home to Elko,Nevada in 2000. In 2008 I was in the Hospital,trying to get over pneumonia.and my Doctor was strongly urging me to do some home improvements (smoke damage from both parents' 40 years of heavy cigarette smoking-painting,hardwood floors,etc.)to make the house safe to live in with my breathing issues. Ann and I decided I should re-finance the house to cover some remodeling. Ann suggested,then insisted that I take enough to buy myself another Harley. She said,"James,every time a Harley goes by the house I see you die a little inside. You should get another Harley-you've paid your dues-now do something for YOU for a change,dammit." (clenched fists,stomps her foot,grins and blushes) It figures,that she'd see something in me that even I didn't spot. Ann would do just about anything for others,but would flat reject offers of assistance for herself. She was TOO stubborn,many times.
   Anyway,the reason I'm writing is to let you know how touched I am with your kind words and your appreciation of her contributions. She considered you good people her online family,a hard title to earn. I'd often hear her laughing or talking back to the computer while she wrote something on the forum or commented on a song or read a comment someone had written. You had as huge an impact on her as she did on you. Thank you for taking care of her while she was in your midst. She truly was in good company there,as I believe she is now.
   James
   sk8080hd@yahoo.com

Thanks, James, tell us more, please.

Posted: Feb 11, 2013 - 5:08am

Speed wrote:

Good first post. {#Yes}

Posted: Feb 11, 2013 - 5:07am

Speed wrote:

Hi all;
   I'm Cynaera's brother James. I just wanted to tell all of you how much I appreciate all your comments on Cynaera. I went through and read all 9 pages,smiling through the tears. Naturally,I miss her terribly still,but it makes the pain much easier to bear to know I'm not hurting alone. I've been so blown away as I learn how many lives she was a part of,and I wish you all could have met her face to face. To be honest,I often didn't have such glowing remarks to give about her,as she could be-challenging to live with at times. But,no matter what,she was always exactly herself,take it or leave it. Giving was so ingrained in her nature,she just didn't feel right unless she could help somebody. A short story about her character.
   In 1998 I had sold my beloved 1980 Harley while living in Reno,to finance a move to Boise Idaho for a job,with the plan of buying another one once I was getting regular paychecks. Things didn't go as well as I'd expected them to,so I didn't get another bike,and a lot happened in the following years. I moved back home to Elko,Nevada in 2000. In 2008 I was in the Hospital,trying to get over pneumonia.and my Doctor was strongly urging me to do some home improvements (smoke damage from both parents' 40 years of heavy cigarette smoking-painting,hardwood floors,etc.)to make the house safe to live in with my breathing issues. Ann and I decided I should re-finance the house to cover some remodeling. Ann suggested,then insisted that I take enough to buy myself another Harley. She said,"James,every time a Harley goes by the house I see you die a little inside. You should get another Harley-you've paid your dues-now do something for YOU for a change,dammit." (clenched fists,stomps her foot,grins and blushes) It figures,that she'd see something in me that even I didn't spot. Ann would do just about anything for others,but would flat reject offers of assistance for herself. She was TOO stubborn,many times.
   Anyway,the reason I'm writing is to let you know how touched I am with your kind words and your appreciation of her contributions. She considered you good people her online family,a hard title to earn. I'd often hear her laughing or talking back to the computer while she wrote something on the forum or commented on a song or read a comment someone had written. You had as huge an impact on her as she did on you. Thank you for taking care of her while she was in your midst. She truly was in good company there,as I believe she is now.
   James
   sk8080hd@yahoo.com

*gulp*

Thank you for this lovely post. There just aren't words adequate to express my feelings ... so again, thank you.

{#Good-vibes}

Posted: Feb 11, 2013 - 4:52am

Hi all;
   I'm Cynaera's brother James. I just wanted to tell all of you how much I appreciate all your comments on Cynaera. I went through and read all 9 pages,smiling through the tears. Naturally,I miss her terribly still,but it makes the pain much easier to bear to know I'm not hurting alone. I've been so blown away as I learn how many lives she was a part of,and I wish you all could have met her face to face. To be honest,I often didn't have such glowing remarks to give about her,as she could be-challenging to live with at times. But,no matter what,she was always exactly herself,take it or leave it. Giving was so ingrained in her nature,she just didn't feel right unless she could help somebody. A short story about her character.
   In 1998 I had sold my beloved 1980 Harley while living in Reno,to finance a move to Boise Idaho for a job,with the plan of buying another one once I was getting regular paychecks. Things didn't go as well as I'd expected them to,so I didn't get another bike,and a lot happened in the following years. I moved back home to Elko,Nevada in 2000. In 2008 I was in the Hospital,trying to get over pneumonia.and my Doctor was strongly urging me to do some home improvements (smoke damage from both parents' 40 years of heavy cigarette smoking-painting,hardwood floors,etc.)to make the house safe to live in with my breathing issues. Ann and I decided I should re-finance the house to cover some remodeling. Ann suggested,then insisted that I take enough to buy myself another Harley. She said,"James,every time a Harley goes by the house I see you die a little inside. You should get another Harley-you've paid your dues-now do something for YOU for a change,dammit." (clenched fists,stomps her foot,grins and blushes) It figures,that she'd see something in me that even I didn't spot. Ann would do just about anything for others,but would flat reject offers of assistance for herself. She was TOO stubborn,many times.
   Anyway,the reason I'm writing is to let you know how touched I am with your kind words and your appreciation of her contributions. She considered you good people her online family,a hard title to earn. I'd often hear her laughing or talking back to the computer while she wrote something on the forum or commented on a song or read a comment someone had written. You had as huge an impact on her as she did on you. Thank you for taking care of her while she was in your midst. She truly was in good company there,as I believe she is now.
   James
   sk8080hd@yahoo.com

Posted: Feb 8, 2013 - 4:10am

Cynaera had obviously used this user name for a long time. Trying to get the meaning I googled it and came up with a lot of info. I remember reading in her obituary about her long time membership of the "fanfiction" website for La femme Nikita. There are links to boards like this one echoing the same sentiments and also this link to her stories dating way back. http://www.thesplitpersonality.net/lfn/writers/stories/cynaera.htm This is all I could find on the meaning of her name in a brief search. Maybe a classical scholar or someone who knew her would like to enlighten us. romeotuma/Lazarus? http://www.kabalarians.com/Female/cynaera.htm {#Sunny}

Posted: Feb 8, 2013 - 3:50am

Ray Charles - Rockhouse Parts 1&2

Just saw this today. RIP Ann. Your wonderfully honest posts give an insight into your beautiful soul.

Posted: Sep 08, 2010 - 08:26

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Sometimes RP just makes me giddy with happiness. This is one of those times. Thank you for keeping Ray Charles in the playlist, because I'd never get to hear his music otherwise. {#Notworthy}

Posted: Jan 23, 2013 - 7:23am

She posted this for JB's For a Dancer.

Cynaera
(In a hammock under my own vine and fig tree.)

Posted: Oct 07, 2011 - 11:53

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I would count it THE high point of my life to be sitting in an audience watching Jackson Browne perform with no accompaniment but his guitars and his piano.

Well, I guess the only other high point would be walking on the moon.

Posted: Jan 18, 2013 - 1:50pm

hippiechick wrote:

Oh, Crippled Inside by John Lennon.

It doesn't seem like it actually has a meaning, but when I searched I found a lot of sad stuff.

CYANara - CYAN as in blue - is all I can get from it.

Posted: Jan 18, 2013 - 1:40pm

kysmet wrote:

Which song?

Also, does anyone know what her username means? Been wondering that for a long time.

Oh, Crippled Inside by John Lennon.

It doesn't seem like it actually has a meaning, but when I searched I found a lot of sad stuff.