Former Supposed RP Junkie
Posted by Trustocity - Nov 4, 2005 - 7:06am |
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I just saw Owld_Skipper's post on RP addiction and thought, what the hell, the brain's ticking, let it tick. I am well acquainted with the imprisoning state which follows true liberation on the RP boards, and thought I'd throw in my 147 cents one last time. But as I begin to type, the apprehension wells. I really did not want to come back. And that's not what that is. I just felt like I owed some of you an explanation.
First, the facts: I've been in lurker mode since August 17, but it feels like much, much longer. The withdrawal sickness was very real. You'll think I'm exaggerating for comedic effect, but when I visited the site without logging on, for about three weeks it made me very twitchy and sick. But after all, I needed my RP radio stream. It's the only way I can get work done in the office anymore. So there I have Real Player on the screen, and I'm not spending any time at RP, and I feel like a traitor, or at the least, a tool. I'll keep listening to RP, and you'll continue to see only an occasional post from me on the music boards; I am, after all, invested in high ratings for the new songs I like.
I left in a huff last time, and I didn't even have a chance to tell you guys what you meant to me. I considered many of you true friends, even though I was not willing to open myself up to you with my picture, phone number, invitation to attend a concert with me, or even my last name. So in some important ways our friendship was a lie, and that's why I'm moving on, and yet I'm grateful to you for both giving me a place where I could be myself (ugly as that is) and for trying your best to understand me. I know it for a fact, you tried your best. When I started here, I expected to teach you more than I learned from you. Why I thought that I can't say, but it's obvious in retrospect. Anyway, I learned a lot.
Hey, why the long face? Chin up, emo kid! We'll still see each other on weekends and holidays. It's not like I'm moving to San Diego. Who needs the smog?
Long live Radio Paradise.
David
trustocity@yahoo.com
P.S. *deleted bit of comedic irony which people didn't understand - point proved*
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formersnowbug
I'm sure where my spark is.
Location: in the land of corn and cows
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Nov 8, 2005 - 1:55pm |
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You know, I think we lightly butted heads once, but since I'm rarely active in the fora, I'm sure it didn't even register.
What does, for me at least, is your amazing, beautiful, crush-inducing song comments. Please don't stay away long.
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PattonFever
where are we going? what are we doing in this handbasket?
Location: now/here
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Nov 8, 2005 - 1:37pm |
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i've always thought you were aces. especially after you defended me from a misogynist. :D
also, i've had to give up my rp addiction for a while, too, due to moving & whatnot. it does suck. :(
and i kind of agree with curry's comment about the last line, there. it was all great until i read that. easy. :/
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Pyro
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Nov 8, 2005 - 8:35am |
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I always enjoyed your posts, even when we didn't agree. It was my impression that you (like so many of us) tried your best to "fight fair" and "help people see the light" as you saw it.
I also understand the addiction, and I've been making a real effort to stay out of the "hot topic" forums. It's hard, but it's better for me to concentrate on work. So, congratulations to you for hanging in there since August...
I agree with Ankhara that relationships here are exactly what you put into them, just like the real world.
It's good to see you, Trust....and I hope you'll peek in, now and again, and say hello, if nothing else...
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Sean-E-Sean
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Nov 4, 2005 - 9:47pm |
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...Heya' Trust!...hope all's well in your world...I always looked forward to your rants...errr...Journal posts!...haha!...Respect to you and good to see your words...
S.
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steeler
About three bricks shy of a load
Location: Perched on the precipice of the cauldron of truth
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Nov 4, 2005 - 9:57am |
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David:
We parried, laughed, commiserated, and a number of other things.
We did learn from each other. That is important, and it serves to remind me why I continue to post.
I'm touched by your entry.
Sincerely,
John
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honeygirl
Drop you troubles by the riverside & take a painted pony ride..
Location: a tract of land... New England
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Nov 4, 2005 - 8:36am |
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as always... ((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))) David
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ankhara99
Taking a new direction
Location: Over the Rainbow
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Nov 4, 2005 - 7:29am |
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You have been missed. And let me tell you a quick story about RP. Sure, at first you're hesitant to use your real name, and don't share your last name or your picture, and that's ok. But sometimes, you PM people, then you e-mail, and - in my case- the next thing you know you're flying across the country on vacation (which just happens to be near an RPeep) and going to visit one in person.
There are many, real, live-in-the-flesh friends around here who have bravely taken the chance to move this from online to real life. And, in general, except for one or two wierd incidents, that has worked out very well. There are many here who are real life friends. The one RPeep I met is a dear friend and will be for life. I hope to meet more RPeeps and will be soon, actually.
We are real people and we do care about each other. Don't say that relationships started here are a lie. They are what we make of them. And some of us have made some pretty wonderful ties.
Its good to see you back.
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miamizsun
Location: (3261.3 Miles SE of RP)
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Nov 4, 2005 - 7:23am |
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Let's be objective, fair and balanced. They are all traitorous sons of bitches. 
btw, welcome back, i've been semi-lurking myself. work has been unbelievably busy.
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Curry
Location: Home
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Nov 4, 2005 - 7:22am |
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Hi Trust. It's good to see you back too, but your "PS" left an acrid taste on what was up to then a nice piece.
"Traitorous" is a label not to be tossed lightly, and I see it all too frequently used in a manner to simply smear people. Throwing it in so casually demeans and cheapens the effect you so successfully achieved in the previous paragraphs.
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winter
see clearly, act boldly, love fiercely, live richly
Location: in exile, as always
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Nov 4, 2005 - 7:15am |
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Welcome back, Trustocity. You've been missed.
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