For the third time we have all rushed to the hospital and gathered around my mum's bed as she suffers yet another heart attack...

Dunno if I can cope with anymore of these, the stress is murdering me. All you get is the mobile phone call saying she's in an ambulance and to go to the hospital, and then you get to sit about for 5 hours in the A&E department as assorted injured people sit around you. You get to stand next to a bed, not knowing what to say, or how to act, not knowing what is going on.

Then you get to go through the same rigmarole outside the Acute Coronary Care Unit getting the same bollocks speech from the nurses, the same understanding nods from the doctors, and the same crap at the bedside.

I know I sound bitter, but I really don't want her to just fade away...I'd rather she'd just blow out in a big way. It's not that she's even happy...She's housebound and on 24 hour Oxygen...slowly dying in the most uncomfortable way I have ever ...


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Has anyone heard of Unconditional Positive Regard?

I am having trouble with it at the moment. I work in a place where you have to be a good listener to work well, and we have this new chap in. He's good at speaking. And oh so very confident, but - well there's an Indian proverb which says the man who has his mouth full of his own words has no space for the words of others. He asks questions of others, but doesn't seem to want to wait for an answer. I find this really hard to come to terms with as I feel I am giving everyting and getting nothing back in return. All I have is his opinions and he has no time to listen to others. This hurts me. He brings out the worst in me and I am ashamed of myself for not being forthright enough to say to him shut up and listen. Problem is the reason I don't tell him to shut up is exactly the reason why I am so good at my job. (I was recently headhunted to move to a different place of work a step up (but not a promotion in ...


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