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Journal of kurtster
It's My 4th Birthday !!!!!!!!!!
Posted: Apr 24, 2013 - 4:40am
It's my 4th Birthday today !!!!!!

4 years ago today I was brought back from the dead with my stem cell infusion.  Doesn't seem like yesterday anymore.  But I can still see it in the rear view mirror.  One more year to the magic 5 year mark !

Kudos to all the other survivors here, I am only one of many. 

Kudos to RPeeps.  Once again I give thanks to one of the most important aspects of my support system through it all. 

Couldn't a done it without y'all !

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A couple of things from Nils Lofgren
Posted: Feb 1, 2013 - 9:44am
A couple of Nils Lofgren tracks to enjoy on this quiet day.

Carol King's ~ Goin Back, live from an old Cleveland Agora concert and

Cry Tough ~ From the album Cry Tough

downloadable @320k for your listening pleasure ...

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  y'all.


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A Kemosabe Christmas, 2012
Posted: Dec 25, 2012 - 5:28pm

Christmas 2012

There is so much going on Kemosabe needed to be taken off the shelf again.  Its so surreal right now. 

This Christmas is different.  There is so much sadness around.  But there is just as much hope around to counter it.  It’s a time of loss and reflection at this more advanced stage of life.  We seem to lose many loved ones this time of year and hardships become pronounced in the middle of festivity.  We all have to endure these things and keep going.

My current list of things to endure are …

My Uncle, who P made many trips out west to care for the past couple of years since his fall is in Hoag Hospital’s (Newport Beach) ICU with pneumonia and a host of other things going wrong.  Its pretty grim and the nursing home called his daughter, his only child, and told her that she better come out, now.  She's living in Colorado presently.  We may ...

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On Politics and RP -- A Commentary ...
Posted: May 20, 2012 - 3:46pm

I've been working on this for a week.  Its as done as it is going to get.  So ready or not:

This has been a long time in coming.  A head has come to pass over politics and the poly threads here.  A lot of people are disgusted with them and have left because of them.  It’s sad, and a sadder reason on top of it.  I get that.  This place is about friends, diversity, fun, music, information, and politics.  Music is about politics in so many ways.

Politics is a wide reaching subject.  It is more than discussing elections and politicians.  Its also about the dynamics of relationships.  How people get along with each other.  A formal way to discuss diplomacy in understanding interpersonal relations where things are gained and lost.  Like anything else in life that requires give and take, dead horses can be found everywhere, and the temptation to go kick something that ...

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EASTER 2012
Posted: Apr 9, 2012 - 5:30am

EASTER 2012

It was a very nice day overall.  Excellent weather, good food and spending time with my wife and parents.  It has also become a place holder / marker.  This past St.Paddy’s day my father (84) had a sugar episode that landed him in the hospital, which seems to be happening monthly lately.  That stay also resulted in my dad being placed on oxygen 24 / 7.  Previously, it was at night only.  My mom (85) also had a fall that resulted in an awful looking head injury.  She was ok, but the bruise was gawd awful.

We got there and a huge tank sat in the middle of the house with yards of hose and my dad attached to it.  There were a couple of smaller tanks nearby on little carts.  We spoke a little about it, talking about the little water tank attached to the tank that put moisture in his oxygen.  It bubbled like a little fish aquarium.  For the past several months we have taken on ...

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Posted: Feb 27, 2012 - 6:51am
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Time to heal and move on ... (post script added)
Posted: Feb 11, 2012 - 8:52pm
11 February 2012

Inspired by rt over in the forum.

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it's good to see this stuff, especially now.  We are trying to rebuild our lives again.  Jr, has finally moved out.  Tried to OD twice in the same day last Saturday.  Noontime, we had paramedics and 6 of the city's finest in the living room and he talked his way out of going.  I wasn't home at the time.  In the evening he woke up, came down stairs and babbled incoherently for about an hour.  He then disappeared into the head for about 10 minutes.  About a half an hour later he nodded off in the chair dripping a cup of hot coffee on himself without effect.  We looked at each other, said it was time, got dressed for the occasion ( it was getting late and we were in our jammies) and called the paramedics again.  They quietly returned (no cops, thank goodness ! ) and after checking him out asked him to go out to the squad so they could do some ...

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11 Years of RP
Posted: Jan 20, 2012 - 11:44am
 

13 January 2012

This has been a long time ‘coming.   Been 11 years this month since I stumbled onto RP via Shoutcast.   Jumped into the webpage soon after and joined up a year or so later.  The timing of discovering RP was pure luck because terradio in Cleveland took a permanent dive south around the end of the 90's other than the good old college stations.  But tuning in once a week for 2 hours of something in particular just don't do it.  Then they are so low power as to make them not worth the hassle of trying to listen in the car.  It was down to mixtapes or talk radio. 

RP has changed my musical experience so much in the past 11 years.  I was never one to really watch MTV or music videos in general.  I didn't want to see a visual association of a certain piece of music.  I wanted to keep my own intact.  Radio was not meant to have visual images attached to ...

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GRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ...............
Posted: Nov 30, 2011 - 7:36pm
I was going to put this in how do you feel right now, but decided this was a better place.

{#Fire}   {#Arghhh}

The wife is supposed to be going back home to SoCal to take care of my uncle for two weeks.

We just found out by accident that my cousin had the internet and tv shut off in her dad's house.  He's in a critical care unit.  We were warned about the net, but not the tv.  She is supposed to sit in the house alone for two weeks without anything ?  My cousin didn't have any remorse, just trying to save money was the answer.  She's just trying to preserve her inheritence.  I guess this is how bad feelings get started in small families.  There is more to this but this is enough for ...

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Chemosabe's Thanksgiving
Posted: Nov 24, 2011 - 6:52am


 

T Day 2011

So much angst is afoot.   Seems to be more crazy than joy going around lately.  We are in a seasonal transition along with times that are equally so.  Its almost like things are so bad that everyone is dialing things back so as to not add to the uproar.  Civility seems to be spreading because of the contrast to the things that aren't working.  I may be crazy and reading it all wrong, but this is what I'm seeing.  People are expressing themselves, but not setting up others with bait for a rejoinder and when bait is offered, it isn't being taken.  There are always exceptions, but the trend seems to be towards working for solutions rather than destruction.

Black Friday.  What a concept.  The meaning has certainly changed over the years.  Its an admission that we have put all of our eggs in one basket ?  We have a time now where everything runs at a loss for ...

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Modern Times ~ Jefferson Starship
Posted: Sep 21, 2011 - 5:05am

Modern Times ~ Jefferson Starship

A guilty pleasure album for me.  Never made it to CD, vinyl only.

This is a project inspired by winter.  The songs don't really stand up too well when played individually, but in the context of playing them straight through in order, they work and really well.  Some downright awesome guitar and Gracie's voice noodling in and out. 

The one track that does stand out to me as listenable all by itself is  04 Save Your Love.  Worthy of inclusion in a road mix.

You will hear some vinyl noise here and there that I couldn't get out, but its still pretty decent.

CLICKY HERE

All 9 tracks including the wildly popular track Stairway to Cleveland.  {#Lol} ...

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David Werner ~ Whiz Kid
Posted: Jul 5, 2011 - 9:18am
Been ripping some vinyl again.

Never on CD, David Werner's Whiz Kid album (1973).  Early glam kinda thing. He is from Pittsburg and got a lot of airplay here in Cleveland back in the 70's.

Track one  One More Wild Guitar / Whiz Kid   in one track as on the album

Track two   The Ballad of Trixie Silver 

Also ripped Springsteen's Tunnel of Love from vinyl, just to see how it would stack up to a CD.

@ 320k for your listening and downloading pleasure.
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{#Cheers}  Y'all


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Tales of Chemosabe ~ The Last Bag
Posted: Jun 23, 2011 - 6:11am
 

23 June 2011

 

Yesterday was the last scheduled bag.  Two years and nine months after the first one.  Wow, what a trip.   All reports show that I am doing well, as far as the cancer is concerned.  I still get fatigued, being able to work for about six hours before hitting that wall where all things stop making sense.  But can I put a string of days together ?  That remains to be seen.  Still have a whole life ahead of me.  Just need to figure out what to do next. 

At the very least, I need to remind myself of all the things to be thankful for that have happened along the way.  It's not that hard, but I just don't want to forget.  I need to reset priorities to guide me through what's ahead.  Most important though is to never give up.  The Stones are on the terradio, we all need someone we can lean on ...   The synchronicities, the ...

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One Step Closer ...
Posted: Jun 19, 2011 - 5:17pm
I just noticed that we are one step closer to an event I've been waiting for for at least 40 years.

When I went to the airport last night to get P, after I went through the toll booth on the Turnpike, I noticed a camera flash.  I paid cash, no EZ Pass or anything.  Hmmm.  The Ohio Turnpike has been slowly coming together technology wise for the last 25 years.  The road is falling apart, but the monitoring has gotten better. 

I ran a couple of the Fuel Plazas at the rest stops on it back in the late 80's so I am pretty well versed on its inner workings.  They laid fiber optic cable from one end to the other in the median back then.  Part of the main intercontinental system.  (want to royally mess things up ?  Drop a bomb in the median and blow the line, all hell will break loose)  So the toll booths all got linked up, the clocks and automation creeped in.  They ...

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Oakland, another city by the Bay.
Posted: Nov 8, 2010 - 8:22am
 

Oakland may have great weather (compared to SF) but its lot is cast.  This is my oversimplified explanation based upon the memory of a Bay Area native who remembers riding ferries across the Bay from Berkeley to SF and to San Rafael, before the invasion of Eastern transplants.  I'm sure I left out lots of important stuff and feel free to correct me on my take.  This is my attempt to offer an explanation to dmax's serious questions about Oakland.   I figure I owe a reasoned response after all the stuff about earthquakes I heaped on him last week in the Breaking News thread.  The history of San Francisco Bay is fascinating and of great interest to me, and it is so important in the history and development of the US as well.

Oakland, another city by the Bay.   

Oakland was never intended to be a cultural or business Mecca in the San Francisco Bay Area.  When California was secured from the ...

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AL KOOPER ~ BURY MY BODY
Posted: Oct 28, 2010 - 5:43pm
Was going to put this up over the weekend, but it didn't seem appropriate.

But since then,   {#Mrgreen}

Al Kooper, one of my all time favorites and forgotten artist.  Why the hell he ain't in the R&R HOF is beyond me, but ...

Seems like a real nice song on a Sunday morning  Thursday night and all.  Been meaning to get to this song for a long, long time.

Shuggie Otis at 13 or 15 years old, too.  From 1972 ...

Al Kooper  ~  Bury My Body

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Optimism is an attitude
Posted: Sep 23, 2010 - 2:39pm
This is in response to the question posed in the forums about optimism.  Way too long for a thread so I decided to make a journal out of it.

 

Optimism is indeed an attitude.  It is the glass half full.  It is the reward for accomplishment.  And achieving it can be done.  How bad do you want it ?  It requires hard work and discipline to turn around a bad attitude, but over time it can be done.

First off, establish goals; write lists of things that need to be done, regardless of how small or insignificant.  When making lists of goals for the purpose of changing attitude, make the goals short term and very attainable at first.  Get yourself a stenographers notebook so you can flip back and forth and see what you have done or left undone.  Date the pages for easy reference and to ...

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Time For Some Healing
Posted: Aug 1, 2010 - 12:09pm
Seems to be a need for some healing around here.  Lot's of tragedy, words and hurt feelings everywhere.

Since words have been flying all over the place, how about some comfort music ?

I spent the morning working on this stuff, its something I've wanted to do for a long time and now seemed to be the time.

So with those thoughts in mind have some of Simon and Garfunkels' Bookends.

Not all of it, but most of it. The highlights of the album.  Maybe I'll finish it soon or not.

Clicky Here

Remastered and downloadable at 320k for your listening pleasure.

{#Cheers}  Y'all

02 Save The Life of My Child
03 America
08 Fakin' It
09 Punky's
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Further ramblings from the continuing adventures of Chemosabe
Posted: Jul 26, 2010 - 5:42am

A month's worth of thoughts and ramblings from the space between my ears.

26 June 2010

Now what ?

I've kept Chemosabe on the shelf for a while now and it's seems to be something that should be done, but on the other hand, I should never forget what has been a life altering experience.  Not that I can, but some things assume their own identity and a life of their own.

I found great use of the metaphor that dealing with cancer is the ultimate rolly coaster ride in an effort to share and explain the emotions and challenges involved.  Now, it's like the ride is shut down for the winter, the park is closed and the snow just swirls around in the empty spaces waiting for the summer.  Tis now the betwixt and between.

The lines from the Peggy Lee song, Is That All There Is ?, rattle around in my head:

Is that all there is, is that all there is
If that's all there is my friends, then ...

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Stem Cells and Money
Posted: Apr 1, 2010 - 8:26pm
My reply to a remark by Rosedraws in the health care thread.  Its too long to post over there and became this journal.  No politics involved, cause long ago I promised to never bring that stuff over here.

So have a read if you like.

 

I am totally in awe of the whole process and expense of saving me.  Hell they could have given me all the money instead and I could have taken off on the end of my life trip of a life time, and still not spent it all, but I would have died a year ago if I went that route.  Instead, I continue to live, and kinda pick up right where I left off before I got ill to begin with.  This is a burden to live with.  Survivors guilt, why me ?  What makes me worth spending all this money on ?  Is it just a contractual obligation or is it more ?

The only thoughts that help me deal with this is that I have become a human Guinea Pig for all of those who shall yet ...

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