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Noah Kahan — Growing Sideways
Album: Stick Season
Avg rating:
6.2

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Total ratings: 326









Released: 0
Length: 4:08
Plays (last 30 days): 7
So I took my medication
And I poured my trauma out
On some sad-eyed middle aged man's
Over-priced new leather couch

And we argued about Jesus
Finally found some middle ground
I said I'm cured

And I've divvied up my anger
Into thirty separate parts
Keep the bad shit in my liver
And the rest around my heart

And I'm still angry at my parents
For what their parents did to them
But it's a start

But I ignore things
And I move sideways
'Till I forget what
I felt in the first place

At the end of the day
I know there are worse ways
To stay alive

'Cause everyone's growing
And everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me

Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive
I guess I'll drive

So I forgot my medication
Fell into a manic high
Spent my savings at a Lulu
Now I'm suffering in style
Why is pain so damn impatient
Ain't like it's got a place to be
Keeps rushing me

But I ignore things
And I move sideways
'Till I forget what
I felt in the first place

At the end of the day
I know there are worse ways
To stay alive

'Cause everyone's growing
And everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me

Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive

And if all my life was wasted
I don't mind I'll watch it go
It's better to die numb than feel at all

Oh, if all my time was wasted
I don't mind I'll watch it go
It's better to die numb than feel at all

So I ignore things
And I move sideways
'Till I forget what
I felt in the first place

At the end of the day
I know there are worse ways
To stay alive

'Cause everyone's growing
And everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me

Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive
I guess I'll drive
Comments (18)add comment
 coloradojohn wrote:

Some resonant lyrics here! "...I'm still angry at my parents for what their parents did to them..." I can relate! And what a great way to share and decompress; nice songwriting, and some lovely strumming, too! MUSIC...IS YOUR ONLY FRIEND...until The End...


nice comment, wholeheartedly concur

the last line makes me think of Northern-Irish indiepunkrockers Therapy? with frontman Andy Cairns singing 'And I know that you need music more than you need love' in the song Jam Jar Jail. Great tune that attests to the same sentiment, but I guess I'd have to switch to the Rock mix for a chance to hear that 
 Alanna wrote:

The lyrics. Whoa. Tearing up.....

Yeah, need to take a few deep breaths after this one. 

Real hints of Ed Sheeran's The A Team
The lyrics. Whoa. Tearing up.....
 philonair wrote:
This is playing in my favorites channel, because i rated this with a 7. Everything i rated 7+ is in my playlist. 2300 songs so far. What an awesome playlist. Thank you for that William and Alanna!

That's an impressive favorites list!!! 

I'm from '97... Man I'm feeling old right now.
If you're going to be lame and pathetic, at least make it sound interesting. So generic.
I'm liking this but... it sounds like Paolo Nuttini impersonating Paul Simon
This epitomizes the new trend of RP playing whiny singers. My life is sooooo hard - I better write another whiny song....solid 1.
Some resonant lyrics here! "...I'm still angry at my parents for what their parents did to them..." I can relate! And what a great way to share and decompress; nice songwriting, and some lovely strumming, too! MUSIC...IS YOUR ONLY FRIEND...until The End...
I hear dave mathews in here
Totally thought this was Brett Dennen. Or maybe it’s the bourbon…? I like!
Gave it a mediocre 6 first. Than I started to listen to the lyrics, reading along. It's a solid 8 now for me :)
 rlr511 wrote:

Born in 97!  holy bucket's i'm old.  Liking this guy a lot. 


I Know!!  '97 is - like - 6 years ago surely?  He's growing on me too, even if he should still be in the early years of school
Apologies in advance, but I just can't get next to this guy or this song. 
This is playing in my favorites channel, because i rated this with a 7. Everything i rated 7+ is in my playlist. 2300 songs so far. What an awesome playlist. Thank you for that William and Alanna!
A bit too whiney for my taste. Almost up there with The Decemberists.
Born in 97!  holy bucket's i'm old.  Liking this guy a lot.